Maybe I should have come alone.Maybe if the clouds didn’t resemble tombstones and I had brought something more upbeat to read the ocean wouldn’t seem so final— an ongoing thought carried to shore then taken away, washing the same green sock over and over again.Maybe if I was taking medication or at least St. John’s Wort, maybe if I had a chocolate bar to eat between breakdowns the seagull’s cry would be more of a sigh and the waves wouldn’t seem so blue.Maybe a lot of things. Maybe if I could slip into Sylvia’s mind, sort out the spices in her spice rack, alphabetize them and dust them off. Maybe then I’d understand how it’s the little things that pull you under.
Finally the search was over, and the scientists and astronauts all returned to Earth. "Sorry," they told the large crowd that had begun to gather as their ship landed. "It turns out there's no life anywhere else in the universe.